Waiting game...

So today I had a doc appointment and found out that my ovaries need to recover from the last round of injectibles. So on the u/s it showed that they were still stimulated (as in the follicles were still big) I'm not sure if that means they are cysts? I guess I should ask that next. So anyway...my next appointment is april 5. He put me on birth control for a month so that I'll get AF on time.

It makes me sad that here we go again with more waiting...it's like my life is constantly on hold. I just wish I was normal and could get pregnant like most woman. But I'm trying not to think about it too much. hmmm But since I have this month off I'm going to work out a good amount since last month I was on restriction pretty much do to the meds and my ovaries growing follicles.

My doc feels really optimistic that i'll get pregnant especially now that we've done one round and now he can do the meds a little different...instead of going from one vial to 2 we'll go from 1 to 1/2...kind of makes me nervous because with two I really showed they were working, but with one my E2 didn't go up like it should. I mean I know he's the doc and knows what he's doing. It's in Gods hands and the docs hands. So i pray that God gives the doc guidance in helping us get pregnant.

I haven't had a facebook since thursday and to be honest it feels good. I've been reading more and it's just more personal to talk on the phone to people. Ok so twice I've looked on Nicole's but b/c I wanted to see what a few of my friends updates were (ones that I see or just saw), but it's nice not having the burden to feel like I HAVE to post on someone's wall. And it really is important that I focus on myself and my life right now.

I feel like as long as I keep myself busy this month that it'll go by pretty fast. I just want this so bad! Oh so everytime I go to the doc my stomach gets upset on que! grrrr I hate that. It's annoying. But it could always be worse.

I'm reading the last book of the Sunrise series of Karen Kingsbury and she just is so inspiring/her books are. There is a verse that has come up a few times in this book and it's one I read awhile back and it says:

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phillipians 4: 6

This is just so true and inspiring and I just need to surender everything I am and let God know my requests and as Joelle said keep knocking on His door.

Persistence.